Brainstorm

Life as a whole.

Ahhh. Satisfaction. I have reached the point of satisfaction. I have done what I could and lived my life to the fullest as I can since the past year. I learn something new every time I let myself do. I was battling with myself for some time back. Trying to rediscover my definition of life, all over again. No one can fully define it for anyone anyhow. But now, I’ve finally let myself love me. I’m not trying to disect "Life" anymore. I’m trying to live it.I tried understanding myself more than ever lately. And came up with the conclusion to change. It is one of the most absurbed idea alot of people will not get, when I say I want to change, yet, this is the decision that I believe happens more often than realise. The decision that makes the line that differenciates an average human to an extrodinary one. A good friend of mine told me that I should remember that God made me this way, what gives me the smart head to hate myself so much? I am actually really blessed that I can only say I’m sorry if you do envy me. I used to envy others. Now, I envy no more. As good as I may sound to be, or as contented as I may seem, I won’t stop here. I’m moving on. As much as I had been through too, I know still haven’t seen anything. But I learnt too that the more I see, the more I realise how insignificant everything in this world actually is. The things we prize and put first are usually the things we forget that are the most pointless. At the end of a lifetime, you will still question the very being you are, your worth and what is it you really want. This search will probably never end or never start if you knew what the search is about. However I wouldn’t want to say it here again, I believe the answer is Jesus. But oh well, that’s for you to find out. Can I hear an Amen to that?

Working for L’Oreal Professionnel Colour Trophy event.

It was a blast, of course, minus the 60% boredom of sitting around, watching the rehearsal while I mentally judge and categorize humans in their ‘natural’ surroundings. ‘Natural’ meaning, such like, models at their runway area or the event managers running the system etc. etc. I learnt nearly as much as when I worked for Stylo, KL Fashion Week. But I did less running about in the chaos. I got to observe closer to how Chris, the creative director did his thing. It was fascinating to watch people in control and people basking in glamour for walking up and down, while packing an LV bag with a cup or Starbucks good to go :). With just a few of us college people working (for a cheap pay, mind you), we were treated more like potentials’ rather than the extra hand. Makes me wonder whether I should get into event managing slash the fashion line. Haha The only regret I had working for this is that I didn’t bring my tripod along. That’s why the pictures in my profile are not half as good as it’s supposed to be. But I’m pleased enough. I had my trusty camera and that’s good enough.

Everything else that matters.

Goodbye to Jane. My best friend and confidante who left me for Australia a few days ago. Jane, if you read this, you suck :’( but I love you anyway. College has begun again. Back to school. I’m already loaded with work as I type… Oh well, at least I’m already a full fledged senior doing my major now. I’m wasting time here but well, if you read till here, you suck too… go do some work. Haha Thank you You are my greatest audience. Kisses from me. *pause momentarily* *slaps head* Did I just kiss you??

Whopeey! I just thought I’d celebrate my 111 pageviews in flickr and 222 in deviantART today. It’s really odd that my deviantART account hit this mark way way way faster than flickr but I guess I shouldn’t doubt that since I am more active and happy in DA

Feel invited to inform me you DA account and I’ll add you as a friend or in flickr for that matter. I guess you can say I’ve got pulled into the joints. But heck, I’m having fun and it boosts up my self confidence while keeping me humble at the same time I think it is somewhat important to be partial involved in these sites for a few purposes. I want to build some recognition especially within the art scene to also pick up some names for future use. I need to know what is in the market now too. Earn a reputation at the same time when the day comes when I fully know that I am good enough.

Oh well, as long as I remember that whatever happens on the net can never be as sweet as what we experience in reality. This will keep me from being one of those lost in cyberworld, creating an artificial me, living, feeling (I mean emoticoning) breathing everything non-existant. But as I said, everything has it’s pros and cons.

It’s only cause I am on holiday now that I fully divert my attention to the next thing that would improve my knowledge in art, hence making a wiser me. I can’t wait to get back to college and start tying a rope around my neck… but I AM excited. hahaha Already in my first week, I’ll be missing a day of classes and during the same day, I will be missing a training for a day event for Loreal. I’m not sure whether I will be working for it yet though. Seeing that I’m requested to, they might lemme get away without training. Haha..

Anyway, I wish everyone a good day and hope that my ex schoolmates are doing well Cheerio.